Am I Full of It??

I’ve been holding out on all of you. Majorly. Hiding something BIG.

You see, on Monday March 28th, I gave birth. And I told a handful of people. Even much of my immediate family was kept out of the loop. Sorry fam!

She is a beautiful, brand-new website in the gestation phase for almost a year, and I LOVE her. So WHY would I hide this information from all of you? Why didn’t I send Birth Announcements out over the magical waves of Social Media and Email? Throw a massive party? Ask powerhouse affiliates to spread the word?

It all began here…October 2015…

I was on retreat in Australia with one of my Teachers, Amir Zoghi (the mentor of my current Coach, Kirra Sherman). It was the Closing Circle. I started to shake, burst into tears, and someone passed me the microphone.

Oh great…I thought…and then the words flowed out of me like wildfire.

I am full of shit.  

I am a total fake. I have no idea who I am or what I am doing.

Every action I have taken and decision I have made in my life has been a request for LOVE.

Did those words REALLY come out of my mouth in a room full of people?

YES.  Fuck.

The room went silent.

And eventually, Amir spoke, “Just checking in, but does anyone else in the room perceive Cora as fake?”

Silence again.

And then a sweet voice piped up from right next to me, “Well, there was that time when you were telling that story to us and you went into performance mode.”

I knew exactly what she meant. For years I had used my story telling with an agenda. Looking for strokes like approval, validation, appreciation, and recognition from the “audience”. BUSTED.

And so grateful.

Amir continued, “What would you do and how would you live if you weren’t seeking Love? If you know you were already limitlessly loved? If you knew you WERE love?”

I would be silent so much more. I would slow down. I would spend lots of time alone.  Life would feel very simple.

Amir smiled, “Well okay then.”

My life would never be the same.

As we walked out for the morning break, different people came up to me, thanking me for my honesty, my truth, my heartfelt share.

One man said, “I just saw the real you. I didn’t see her before now.”

Another participant shared, “Thank you for your vulnerability. That could have been ME saying those same words. Glad to know I am not alone. ”

And finally, feedback that stands out loud and clear, “I wonder if this will change what you do for work. Will it even feel TRUE to be a Spiritual Life Coach?”

So how does this connect to my website and new branding you might ask? Well, this is why…

In some ways, my business (life) journey has been a request for love, validation, a desire to be seen as magical or special or wise out of a deep fear that maybe I am intrinsically:

-unlovable
-normal
-plain
-boring
-unaccepted
-unworthy

So I have been pondering if I have an agenda for launching this site.  Is it is truly about my Soul or is my Ego looking for something from the audience again?

And yet, when I slow down and reside in the Silence, in Presence, I KNOW that I am worthy, lovable, and acceptable JUST AS I AM. When I connect to the Deep Down place within me (within all of us) that LIVES and breathes Truth, I am at peace.

And from that peace, in this moment, I am MOVED to share this website just for the FUCKING FUN of it. Period. For the joy…because my heart and soul wrote the copy, beautiful photographer Jeremy Deweese took the pictures and fabulous John Wayne Zimmerman brought the flow into form, AND because maybe just maybe these words might speak to YOUR own inner Knowing.

Helping to AWAKEN that place inside of YOU…that KNOWS, with every breath, YOU are a living-breathing Miracle of limitless possibility. With nothing to prove. Ever.

Yes?

Let’s Soul Dive together, shall we? THROUGH the bullshit and into the Truth. The Truth that with or without a fancy website, a certain income, the title of “coach”, the ideal partner, we are inherently lovable and worthy, because we ARE Love.

PRESENTING…my new baby, just one expression of my Love: www.corapoage.com

xoxoxCC